le sigh

my body is tired, but my mind keeps going.
a little blog on long-distance relationships:
Nev and I have been together nearly a year, and have spent less than 2 months with each other (in person). This is exhibit a. Nev texts me half as much as i text him, and rarely calls to tell me wonderful nothingness. This is exhibit b. Nev lives 400+ miles away from where i am "stuck" without a vehicle. This will be exhibit c.
Exhibit a is key as to why we miss each other so much and stay infatuated with one another. If we only see each other once or so a month, we maintain the butterflies-in-my-tummy feeling EVERY time we see each other. So, every moment spent together is special and precious because it will end and not return for another 4+ weeks.
Exhibit b is probably the MOST important part of any relationship: c-o-m-m-u-n-i-c-a-t-i-o-n. Nev and I are open with one another. i am honest about my feelings, but he rarely shares things with me (besides the mushy "i miss you and love you" bits). and the bottom line for me is KNOWING that he thinks of me as much as i think of him. he knows how hurt i am when he doesnt text me a goodnight message or a good-morning message. those messages may seem silly to YOU, but they let me know he is thinking of me first thing when he wakes and last thing before he sleeps. *comfort*
Exhibit c is something i am working on. i need a car anyway-regardless the drive it takes to get to Ohio. Having/not having a vehicle effects every aspect of my life. He does, however, come to visit me sometimes and meet halfway when i get a ride, so...there's that.
BUT THIS STILL STINKS.
Who wants to be in a serious long-distance relationship? no one. if you want to be serious about someone, make it happen. at least don't wait a whole year...it's upsetting, really. If i were to break up with him (which i have thought about), it would not change the fact that i'd miss him immensely and want to write him letters and hear form him and kiss him...it just wouldn't. So...for now...this is the way things will be. But if i have to wait another 6 months like this, i will break it off. there's just nothing else to be done at that point.
ok...i'm done ranting.

blogs are taking over America

it is amazing to me the effect blogs have on today's society. someone with no credibility whatsoever can write a blog with profound emotion and ideas, and BOOM! it spreads to every social network via link and such. I intend to become one of these not-so-qualified bloggers, and my works shall be known. i will write something clever. provocative and cunning. smart and humorous. it will be wonderful, and everyone will love it.

it's going to happen.
just not today.