Autumn graces me

Dear RSG,I can only spell it out for you so many times before it's annoying... Why are you torturing me? ... Stop complicating things, please.

Some days I hate how much I let other people and their feelings affect me...

The Light!

I am starting to see light at the end of this tunnel! Feeling good about where I am, and so thankful for my friends!

Looking forward to figuring this out and having an adventure :)

Home

I can't say what home is to me. I've moved too much too quickly, and it has made me forget the feeling of "home."
Mom's house feels like Mom's house. Steve's house is a bachelor pad. The Rolfs have their own home. And I'm just... Transient.
I feel lost and unsure, but hopeful? I know it will get better. I have to make my own home for Ollie and myself. Someday... It will happen.
Until then, I hope this anxiety wears off
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Sunday with Edward Sharpe

"I've been sleepin for 60 days and nobody better pinch me, bitch i swear i'll go crazy."

It's been a good day, I think. Ollie and I played outside a lot, and Chloe came over and let Ollie drive her Power Wheel! Too fun! The Rolfs left for a party, but Jass and I made dinner for Gma and Gpa... yum!

Gonna watch some more Stella, and then off to the Grog shop with CAS and friends!

*happy*

x

a

Grr and Rar: A Phrase I Know All Too Well

So... Moving in with The Rolfs on Tuesday went swimmingly. Holly, John, Jack and Savvy were very sweet, and made Oliver and I feel so welcome.  Our things are put away, we're getting settled in, and I'm loving this environment for Ollie.  I just wish this nagging in the back of my head would cease. I can't stop thinking about my "rash decision" and if it was the right one.  I still have feelings for Stephen, but I don't think he's ready for this relationship right now. *le sigh*

Hopefully, once I start working, everything will fall into place.

Men

I hate how I always feel like a crazy person. A crazy woman incapable of a long-term relationship. You know the story...
I just wish men weren't so stubborn and unthoughtful.
I have made sacrifices moving to Ohio (in March), and I have loved with my whole heart. Can't a man SEE that?
Ugh... I suppose I'll have to handle this situation with extreme ease as to not hurt anyone's feelings.
I just wish my heart didn't ache this much... Makes it hard to concentrate.
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I need to occupy my time with something. So I'm not constantly reminded of how much I miss him or "what if I made a mistake?"

So this is the hard part, eh? I think I can handle it. At least, I hope I can.

i heart my curling iron

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